Thursday, July 30

Swimming, version 2.0

I've been swimming at a local pool for the past two months. My goal was to go often enough to make buying a 3-month pass worth it. I can't remember what that worked out to, and I could go crunch the numbers again if I wanted, but I'm not going to.

My big plan was to try and swim three times a week since I can't run anymore. I've gone that often only a couple of weeks but that's okay. I'm getting used to swimming and can see that I'm actually getting some exercise, mostly because I'm incredibly hungry after I've swam and I almost always need a nap that day.

Being off work has helped get me to the pool more often. And being in the water feels good because I can forget the extra weight I'm carrying around.

Last week I went and saw my baseball team play. I talked to my friend JP who is a teacher and is off for the summer. She said she'd like to come swimming with me and found out that an outdoor pool near her has lane swimming. She went for the first time this week - I couldn't go with her because of a lunch date with L, but I went to the pool today by myself.

Swimming outside is awesome! Part of being pregnant and having a huge belly is that my back never sees the sun. Well it does when I'm swimming! Two birds with one stone. I think I'm a convert. Plus, being outside, it doesn't smell or feel as toxic as swimming at an indoor pool. I'm quite pleased.

I'm hoping to go at least once next week - no judging, we're at the cottage tomorrow until Wednesday and I have a date either Thursday or Friday next week at lunch already - and then regularly after that.

Wednesday, July 29

Classes

J and I signed up for prenatal classes that are offered by the Ottawa Childbirth Education Association in our neighbourhood. They go for 2 hours every Monday night for 6 weeks. Six weeks brings us to the first week of September, which, if you've been paying attention, is the same week I'm due. I'm sure we'll make it because this baby is going to keep cooking until full term.

We had our second class this past Monday night and I'm happy to say that we're happy with them so far. I'm happy because we're both learning stuff. J is happy because our instructor is a very pretty woman.

There are 9 other couples in the class with varying due dates. There's us, at the beginning of September, the least pregnant couple due in December and everyone else somewhere in between. I'd like to say I'm the biggest girl there, belly-wise, but I'm not. I hear all the time how small I am and it would really get to me if I didn't know that it's okay. If I didn't know that the baby inside of me might be small but he's getting bigger every week.

There are so many things people worry about on a regular basis, but so many more when you're pregnant. Add to regular worry, a ton of crazy person hormones and a lack of sleep and you just might see some tears. The past 8 months have been an emotional roller coaster but I wouldn't change it for the world. Just don't tell me I'm too small.

Friday, July 24

Fun with the cat

I was upstairs in the kitchen. J called up to me: "Sandy is having a great time!" Oh no, what is he doing to my cat, I wondered.

J was pushing the new stroller around the basement with Sandy in it. She was curious but wobbly while he wheeled between the couches and the coffee table.

She's being such a good sport and the stroller isn't the only thing J's put her in. He picked up the snugly and started looking around for her. He found her and grabbed her and put her in. She had one foot sticking out at a weird angle but didn't resist. He walked around for a while with her on his chest, looking pleased with himself. It was quite the sight.

I think someone's getting excited.

Thursday, July 23

What do you do all day?

"What do you do all day?" is a question I get asked all the time now. I admit, when I was planning on having two weeks off before my due date (September 3rd), I wasn't sure what I was going to do with myself. Two weeks? At home, by myself? Would I be bored? Lonely? Okay? Sad? Excited? I had no idea.

Now that I'm off, earlier than expected, with 8 weeks sans baby ahead of me, let me tell you how happy I am. Sure, I've had moments of boredom but nothing compared to what I thought I would have.

So, what DO I do all day? Well, I sleep in a little (I planned on getting up with J every day but that just hasn't happened), I internet leisurely, I swim, I walk, I do house-y things, I read outside, I read inside, I stare at Sandy, I talk on the phone.. I do lots of things. It's quite nice actually.

I'm not sure Sandy would agree because I constantly interrupt her naps to get up for food or to pee or to do something else. I'm coming and going and I'm sure she's sleeping less than when she has the house to herself all day every day.

Even though I'm keeping busy, I love when J gets home. It used to be that Sandy would greet us when we got home. Now, Sandy and I greet J when he gets home.

I've been in to work twice since my last day. Once was to get all my paperwork signed and to pick up some things from coworkers I didn't see before I left. The other was to drop off my parking pass I forgot earlier and to swap a movie for a book. I'll have to go in again to drop off the last book I borrowed from a coworker and also for some baby showers coming up.

I don't miss my work but I do miss a lot of my coworkers. I miss getting the two free papers every day and doing the crosswords. I miss the routine, sorta. Overall I'm extremely happy being a little stay-at-home pregger though. I think J likes it too since I'm much less stressed, much happier, and his laundry magically gets done. Now I just have to work on keeping the fridge stocked and coming up with ideas for dinner every day. Baby steps. Literally.

Saturday, July 18

Green Day and Rain

The Green Day concert was great. The Bravery opened for them and both J and I weren't impressed. We checked them out on YouTube before we concert and found we recognized their music, but they definitely weren't great live. The lead singer seemed unable to hit notes and wavered a lot.

But Green Day. Green Day! This is a band that is awesome live. I loved all the pyrotechnics, in one song in particular, the lyrics are "bang bang goes the" something something.. and the bangs were actual bangs from things exploding. Fun!

My belly was jumping the whole concert. Three hours of jumps and twitches and spasms. Did we ever sleep well last night.

We slept so well that we slept half the day away. I'm not used to that anymore so was kind of surprised when the day sped by. A rainy day in town - no cottage for us.

We're slowly accumulating baby gear. I had a shower at work two weeks ago and after having so many contractions we went out and bought the car seat (the car seat is the only thing you "need" because they won't let you leave the hospital without one AND by getting one, we're assuring the baby will stay in the oven until B-Day) and today we got the stroller (thanks M&JMJ!)

I think I've mentioned before that we had only two options for car seats and strollers when it came to them fitting in our car. Having a Yaris has it's perks, but extra space is not one of them. So we chose the Chicco Key Fit car seat and the I'Coo Targo stroller. Soon the car seat will be living in the car (as a preventative measure I mentioned earlier) and the stroller will be wheeled around the house, hopefully with Sandy in it.

I don't know what tomorrow will bring... maybe another blog post, but maybe not.

Friday, July 17

Less than 50

When you have a countdown that starts with hundreds of days, getting down to 50 left is a big deal. Since I'm a bad blogger, it's now less than 50 days until B-Day, where B stands for Baby.

Here's what's new in my world:

- We had our second appointment with the midwives. I'm still thrilled at having a midwife and not an OB even though they don't know us well yet. The baby is still measuring small but is growing from one appointment to the next. Being my size and shape pre-pregnancy hopefully accounts for a small baby. If so, I'll take it. I will also take any and all compliments on my abs.

- I was having a lot of practice contractions (called Braxton-Hicks, or, if you're J, Miles Briggs contractions) which I'm blaming on the stress I was under at work. The number of contractions per day has gone down significantly since I've been off work.

- Being off work is heavenly. I can't believe it took me 4 days to vacuum, but when you set one goal for yourself every week, it's okay if it takes 4/5 of the week to accomplish said goal.

- I have read the first two books in the Twilight series and have just started the 3rd. They are on-par with Harry Potter though I don't think will ever garner the following that that series has. A high-school love story cannot compete with wizards and dragons, even if vampires are involved.

- I am slowly working on getting more and more time in the pool and more and more colour on my pale skin. Swimming during the day with mostly older people has been interesting so far. I get a lot of comments and questions about my "delicate state" and have even been called "Sue".

- I'm looking forward to my 4th Green Day concert tonight and possibly going to the cottage this weekend. The cottage will depend on the weather forecast right before we go to the concert. I'm not overly optimistic, but either way will be rocking out tonight. I'll be sure to drink a lot of beer and inhale enough smoke to seriously harm the baby. Jokes! We'll be sitting in seats far away from all the typical concert behaviour that will be happening.

Sunday, July 12

Anniversary post... 3 days late

I'm three days late posting about our anniversary. Three days. I was considering mucking with the posting date but I don't want to lie. So here it is. Three days late, but better late than never.

FIVE YEARS! Five years is a long time in that when people find out I've been married for that long they ask how old I am. Hey, I got married young! But at the same time, the time has flown by. We've been together almost 8 and all 8 years have flown by. That is a good indication that we're doing something right. I'm not religious and hardly even superstitious, but maybe this was meant to be.

I've been thinking about this post for a couple of weeks and tried to come up with lists of 5 things. It was harder than I thought it would be so all I have is a list of five of my favourite things J and I have done together.

5. Before we started dating, we stayed up one night at a cottage party, talking the whole time. We were lying on a bench on the screened-in deck, enjoying every moment together. Suddenly we realized the sun was about to make its appearance. In all my wisdom, and without the effects of alcohol that had worn off hours previously, I said, "You're supposed to watch the sun rise with the person you love." How prophetic that turned out to be. (August 2001)

4. Lived apart for 3 years - J in town and me at school. It was less than a 2-hour drive and believe me, we both got to know that drive well. We spent a lot of time traveling between the two cities, a lot of time on the phone and a lot of time chatting (ICQ at the time, and thanks to that I can type pretty quickly). We got to know each other well across the distance and every time we saw each other was better than the last. Building a relationship long distance was tough but it's our relationship. (September 2001 - April 2004)

3. Getting cats. Right after we got married we bought two little cats. We picked them up on Boxing Day and our lives were changed. Even though we're down to one, I wouldn't change it for the world.

2. Getting the Mazda 3. This may be surprising, that getting a car is one of the best things we've done together but it's true. It was the first new car either of us had purchased, it was our biggest purchase together at the time, and it started a lot of things. J got very involved in the Mazda community in town and we met a lot of great people that way. He turboed the car and while doing so learned a lot. I loved that car.

1. Traveling. This isn't a one time event, this is my number 1 because of all the traveling we've done together over the years and everything we've been through because of our trips. We went to Victoria, BC three times, Costa Rica, Germany and Italy, Cuba and Mexico. We also have taken road trips to Toronto, the cottage, Niagara Falls, Montreal and Quebec City. Traveling is always an adventure. You get to see how people act when under pressure (do not make J late for anything in an airport!) and see just how cranky they get after being awake for almost 40 hours. Through everything - the good, the bad, the sometimes ugly and sometimes scary - I know there is no one I would rather travel with.

And that brings me to the end of my post. J is the person I am lucky to spend my life with. There is no one I would rather at my side during everything and anything coming my way. He is my cheerleader, my supporter, my best friend. I couldn't ask for anything more.



Through the years:

2004 - the year we got married
2005 - our first anniversary
2006 - 2 years
2007 - 3
2008 - 4

Thursday, July 9

Unpleasantness

Tuesday actually ended up being my last day at work. It was a busy day as I was preparing to transfer my submissions to my coworkers and going through my office. There was some unpleasantness throughout the day but the bright part of the day was definitely the baby shower my coworkers threw for me. I was brought to the conference room on my floor where about 40 people were waiting with piles of gifts for the baby and snacks and cake and balloons. It was incredible to see how many people came. I tried to not be awkward but I'm not very good at being the center of attention. It was a great time and it really shows how lucky I am to work with such a great group of people.

Unfortunately the unpleasantness of the day picked up right after the shower and by the time I left I was pretty much done. J came to help me bring everything to the car. He was amazed at all the stuff.

Tuesday night I didn't sleep well and actually kept J and Sandy awake most of the night too. It wasn't fun and it didn't take much for J to convince me to stay home yesterday. It was obviously the best thing to do so we had an impromtu day off together and my leave started a day earlier than planned. We went out for lunch and went shopping for some house-y things. I had to do my monthly blood work, which went extremely well thanks to my best friend at the blood lab. I don't even have a bruise!

We went to my work after hours to pack up the rest of my office and then went to play volleyball at Mooney's. I made the mistake of trying to play. I'm not hurt, but it sure wasn't comfortable. It's so hard to sit and watch though so I'm not sure I should go to the beach this weekend for Hope. We shall see.

Today, my first official day of leave, has been great. I slept well last night, I took my time going through my regular internet sites and had a good breakfast with Sandy. So far I've done some things around the house and am constantly thinking of other things to do. I'm very lucky to have these two months to do what I want when I want.

As a congratulations-you're-on-leave present, J got me the first two books in the Twilight series. Such a sweet guy, but I'll tell you all about that tomorrow.

Tuesday, July 7

Decided

I had my leave approved yesterday meaning my last day of work is tomorrow! I'm super excited and can't wait to stay home. Months ago I was unsure what I was going to do at home for the two weeks before my due date. Now I have 8 but I'm really looking forward to it.

We went to the cottage for the first time this year this past weekend. The weather was not summery at all Saturday and I ended up bundled up inside the cottage reading most of the day. Relaxing but not what I was expecting. Sunday was much nicer so I read on the new boat. J and I went looking for turtles and saw a huge snapping turtle! I was so surprised - I didn't know snapping turtles were in the lake. Now I know there's at least one.

It was hard coming back to work yesterday and so I napped when we got home. Big mistake! I slept for 2 hours and that meant I didn't fall to sleep until after 3am last night. I have a feeling it's going to be a long day. But it's my second last day of work so who cares!

Thursday, July 2

Drained

The thing about a post like that last one is that it's draining. I thought about it for weeks and cried while writing it. So thank you for reading and thank you for your comments. I blog about myself and the things I've been through - happy and sad - so that you can get to know me. It was too much to write about at the time, but having it out there feels good. And if one person going through a miscarriage gets some comfort knowing that they aren't the only one, that is more than enough for me.

The other thing that's draining is growing new life. It's draining and exhausting and emotional and even gross. I had a little freak out Tuesday night (which felt like Friday because of the stat holiday) and normally I would go for a run to clear my head. Not an option right now, so I cried it out while lying on the couch trying to watch tv. I felt better afterwards and decided I wasn't going to be an invalid. So what some things hurt, so what I'm boiling all the time and tired. I took my new outlook into the next day and got lots done. Progress!

Speaking of progress, we have a painted baby room - it's light green and looks really good. J has been refinishing a dresser and bed that will be in there and we've decided on a crib. Getting the crib requires a road trip to Toronto and we're not sure when that will happen, but it will. Things are slowly coming together.

What seems to be stalled though is my last day of work. My manager hasn't approved anything so I'm still operating like my last day is in two weeks but there's a small chance it will be next week. I have all sorts of ideas for what I will do this summer and can't wait to be off so I can decide what to pick. I definitely want to swim more regularly and maybe start walking or biking. I would like to organize some things around the house and do some other things that have never happened. I might start baking and test out some recipes that would be good for freezer meals for the fall. I might start scrapbooking again or try something completely different. Then again, I might do nothing. And that's totally okay. I want to read the Twilight books so if anyone in town has them and wouldn't mind lending them to me, let me know!

This post wouldn't be complete without a shoutout to recent birthday babies: Canada and J's mom. Happy birthday to you both!

We're off to the cottage tomorrow. I'm going to whale it up on the beach and hope no one laughs at me. Enjoy the weekend!